Letting Go; My Three Year Old Is Heading To Preschool
I consider this a huge blessing for my son. You see, this isn’t just any preschool. This is a preschool for children just like him with hearing loss and they provide them with the necessary equipment to ensure they’re hearing their teachers like amplification systems, a plan and goals set by his teacher specifically for him, and a speech therapist comes into the school to work with the groups of kids twice a week, and that’s just a portion of the things they do for these chidren. What does this mean for us? Well, it means that my son is going to learn how to communicate with us and his friends. It means less frustration for him. I’m thrilled for him!
However, like any mom getting ready to send her “baby” to preschool my heart is breaking. I know it’s only for a couple of hours a day and only 4 days a week and I should just suck it up and go on with life.. and I will. But for now, I’m a little sad. I’m dreading the first few mornings of saying “goodbye.” I’m dreading the fact that if he hates it he won’t be able to really tell me so and why. I’m dreading the fact that if he hates it he’ll cry when I leave him with his teacher in the mornings… seriously, he knows how to work that lip! Here’s a picture for example:
I know many of you might be wondering why I have a picture of my son crying. Well, he wasn’t too happy while at his sister’s surprise party that we had over the summer and I wanted a picture of him. Usually the camera cheers him up too so I thought it was worth a try. Well, okay, I really wanted to remember his crying face too. You know what, I have no good excuse, I just thought it was kinda funny because he was being a total drama king and he knows how to play us. I’m also a complete sucker who falls for the lip that usually comes after the crying and tears.
Do you see my problem now? I can’t just leave him if he does that… well, I guess I’ll have to and I’ll hate every bit of it. I suppose “But he was crying” won’t be a good enough reason for him to miss school. Once again, I’ll have to suck it up, be strong, and just leave him there. I know he’ll be in good hands.
On the other hand I’m REALLY excited to have him in a school that is so proactive about making sure that he has everything that he needs to learn to begin with and that they’re so on top of things. They’re also sending a speech pathologist to our home to work directly with him and to show us what we need to do specifically to help him reach his goals. Is that not totally awesome?! I’m really excited for him.
I’m thrilled for him, just sad for me. What will I do with myself while both of my kids are in school? I just need to prepare my heart for this coming Monday when I have to let my youngest baby go.
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Awe, that poor little lip just KILLS me!
He’ll be fine. I bet he’ll walk right in, meet some really cool funny friends, and then you’ll be lovin that extra time during the day.
Just make sure you talk to him about how he’s going to school just like sissy. Also mention that you are going to drop him off a lot. That way he hopefully wont be surprised when you leave.
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I totally understand how you feel. My 2 year old just started her 2 morning a week preschool and it was both a blessing and difficult. Our children grow so quickly and in the blink of an eye they are all grown up! But I agree, it will be great for your son to have speech therapy and instill a lifetime of confidence in him
He will be fine- this is such a great opportunity for him to learn and catch up on things he has missed when he couldn’t hear as well. I will be praying for you, I know letting go is hard for all of us mama’s to do!
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