The First Day of Preschool
Today was the first day of preschool for my son.
It sucked.
I hated it.
I even cried a little bit when nobody was watching. I felt really lonely.
Monkey handled it very well but mommy? Not so much! It was the longest two and a half hours of my life.
BUT today was the first day EVER that I got to go to Target without having the only child that’s crying in the store. I actually got to walk through the store without people staring at me due to the wailing siren that I call my child. It was nice and quiet and I left without having a raging headache. I imagine I can get used to this whole two and a half hours of quiet time fairly quickly. I’ll just need a few days and something to keep my mind off the quiet that surrounds me.
Come drop off time my little guy grabbed the aid’s hand and walked right to his class with her. No tears.. just a happy “BYE!” as he left me. I’m glad he handled it so good. A good part of what I hated the most today though was that after picking him up from his first day at school he wasn’t able to tell me about his day. He isn’t able to tell me what they did or how he felt about it and that is really hard because I’m naturally a worrier. As parents we often take for granted those little things. I know I did. I didn’t realize with my daughter that was a moment to be cherished and remembered forever until it was something that my son didn’t have. I’m really thankful that he’s finally in a school with people who are able to equip him with a way to communicate with us. This is a great opportunity for him and even if I shed a tear every day for the rest of the school year after dropping him off I’m extremely happy for him. I’m looking forward to the day when I can ask him how his day was and he can actually tell me.
Now, a question for all of you moms who’s children are all in school… what do you do with yourselves? I feel so “lost.”
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Don’t worry I’m sure you will soon busy yourself with all kinds of projects after this first separation anxiety. I’m thinking you may tear up when his first LOST tooth you see? (Since that is also a sign he’s growing up!) But please do remember me when you see that first wiggler!
Twitter’s Tooth Fairy @toothfairycyber
Flying by to say “Hi” & “Bye”
He looks so big! I’m glad he was so happy on his 1st day.
I am not quite there. Three are in school with the baby still home. I just think that when I get there I will have so much to fill the time. Volunteering at the school for one thing. Not to mention shopping by myself, cleaning the house and having it stay clean for a few hours at least, working on the computer without someone sitting on my lap pounding on the keys. Hmmm… I know I will go through a bit of sadness to leave the baby stage, but right now it sounds pretty darn good!!
My son started preschool this fall too. It was very hard. He was ok with me dropping him off, he didn’t cry a single tear. But me…yeah. As soon as I hit the car out they came. Though he can tell me about his days at school, he refuses…we have to bribe him to get any information out of him. I guess to him that is his time, and his alone…not for Mommy and Daddy. He’s been going now for almost 3 months and though he is still very quite about it, he doesn’t fight going…I know deep down he likes it and it’s good for him. As for what to do with the time…I do house work! There is a lot I can get done in the 3 free hours I get twice a week. Expecially without someone going behind me messing it up again.
But the house is very quiet.
Hugs to you, It will get easier.
Why is it that these days are always harder on mom than on the kids! Glad it went so well! And any store is great without kids, I say try grocery shopping on one of your alone times!!
are those snazzy turquoise ear molds in his ears??
My daughter is in a class of children that are hard of hearing. Sometimes I think she’s jealous that she doesn’t have Hearing Aids (she’s a “peer model” in the class). I’m a Speech Pathologist in a nearby elementary school and really wanted her to learn more ASL and communication techniques than I could teach her at home. And I think that after 6 months of preschool, she is really learning a lot about diversity, abilities, and friendship.